Every where, one, day is love

I saw the most beautiful man I've ever seen in my whole life. Jesus Christ, our Lord & Savior. Eyes like ice cold, rivers filled with love, light. Hair, the most beautiful hair. What kind of love can I offer to anyone when I feel so damaged and broken and afraid but then I see love and everything. All the fear just pours away. And then it comes back the moment they leave the moment you interact with someone negative. They try to bring you down all of the time and I can't help. I can't help but to love you. I can't help but to feel love for you because everyone deserves love. That's why we were put here to be love. Not to hate, not to fear, not to be disinterested. But to be loved to be love on earth are home. Our family our people are land, our water, our seas.

I have three children who are all as individual as a snowflake and I have to memorize every single thing about them to make sure that they feel loved and happiness the way I sometimes did when I was a child but not as often as I would have liked. It's not my parents fault for the way I feel about my childhood. They did the best that they could with what they had. I understand that fully but they should have tried harder the same way I do for my children. I don't sit in a world to be complacent and afraid. Fuck fear. Fear won't keep me from getting what I deserve. I know what I deserve. I know what's mine and I'm coming for it all.