Happy International (420) Marijuana Day!

I am so happy that weed & I have found each other after all these years of avoiding each other. Weed & I feel right & are perfect together. I've been having such staunch writer's block lately & I'm feeling overwhelmed when it comes to writing, especially now that I'm completing my books. There's so much I want to say, but I'm struggling with how to best do it, instead of just fucking it up the first time & correcting the necessary mistakes. & I say "necessary mistakes" too because some flaws are invaluable to writing, & life in general. I need to write; words mean so much to me.

But here we are in 2025 & my weed intake is at an all time high. Since 2020, weed has helped me get consistent, deep sleep, limit my anxiety personally, & motivates me dancing in the middle of the night to relieve stress. I was straight edge for awhile in my early twenties with tobacco, drugs, & alcohol. Alcohol is my crossfade of choice but I don't drink nearly as much as I did, especially when I used to get gin from the distillery. I was a social drinker at parties & events mostly, but especially I'm really confident in myself & my personalities now. So, I enjoy a really great lavender paloma on occasion, but I'm not longer in my blackout drunk era.

Weed is comforting to my spirit, though the downside is my dreams are pretty lightweight as of late. I used to dream in HD technicolor but now, if I remember my dreams it's just fog. I've been putting my creative energy into WagonWatch, outlining my books, & researching how I want to write my memoir. My voice (writing) has changed a lot since I was 18, but I haven't realized the shift as much & my writing had become foreign to me. I'm relearning my own voice & perfecting it to hopefully connect with my children in their adulthood. There are parts of my story that are difficult to say aloud.

So, today on 420, a beautiful spring day, perfect for careening down the roads, take a drive, find somewhere beautiful, safe, & warm; & get high. 💋🌿 #wagonwatch